why these songs? i am a 33 year old, vocal performance drop out, three and a half years sober from alcohol, divorced from an eight and a half year marriage, ex-”worship leader”, who just quit her job because she is tired of bullies getting away with stealing… oh, and with an unpaid car-note and a lit cigarette.

i wrote and recorded this song in one day, one month into my sobriety from alcohol… back in October of 2021.

i used my choir skills, my pain and an iPhone.

this is for those who felt too much, cried too hard… felt misunderstood. there is truth inside of you - just listen.

Hypatia.You are remembered.

“can you see me?” - by Issa Leigh | May 2025 while (legally) stoned in my backyard under the texas sky.

do not forget what is inside of you. 

yes, you. not me, not your pastor, not your teacher, your boss, your brother, your friend, your instagram or TikTok feed… don’t let anyone else make you feel like you are not exactly as you should be. and do not let anyone scoff at your unique beauty. tell you to shrink for feeling and being? why would we innately agree to this? don’t let systems tell you that “there cannot be true healing”. this is a lie. the truth has been erased from our history so we are just sitting in this big fat mess that could be so much better. and how do we arrive to that magical amazing cool badass fun place ? we stop listening to others and we listen to ourselves. i promise you this. if i can find it through christian indoctrination at birth, immense grief from a death that shook my existence, 10 years of alcoholism to numb out the pain, church trauma and being mocked in my life… you can do it, too. and it’s a big, beautiful, undeniable gust of fresh air. witness it. let it witness you. that thing you love to do but are too afraid to do it? do that thing. that’s when everything clicks. om tat sat. i love you.

make no mistake. your life is yours and it does not have to be this way. make it yours. just listen.

why listen?

i have had grief at my seams. i have had rage in my throat. i followed the rules. I have witnessed divinity with a camel crush menthol and a curiosity to play life like the song i’d like to. with reverence and kindness, of course.

and i am remembering.